-Changing your mindset-

In this picture I look happy to be with my friends (which I was) but little did everyone know was that I was terrified I wasn't going to graduate with a D in pre-calc, (since I was) I felt unworthy to graduate and disappointed in myself. "How could I fall so far behind that I have a D?" " I don't deserve to graduate" "Am I going to get kicked out of college?" I was also worried about what I was going to eat before the ceremony. These negative thoughts took over a moment that should've been exciting, and happy for me, but these thoughts consumed me.

Changing your mindset is not easy at all and will take a lot of time and practice! trust me I am still working on it every single day. Every day is a new day to grow and become a better version of yourself.

Don't get frustrated when it doesn't happen right away because it will most Definity not. something I struggle with is the thought of failure and putting too much pressure on everything I do. My expectations are way too high for things and once these things happen and aren't nearly what I thought they would be I beat myself up, until I am so broken by what I tell myself I start to believe them. Things take time so don't be hard on yourself. (I am no expert I am going off by my experience and what worked for me, remember that everyone is different! so don't feel bad if something that works for me doesn't work for you! trust me you will find what works)

Some tips and Tricks

“When I am afraid, I put my Trust in you"

- Psalm 56:3

Everyone's beliefs are different, and I respect each and every value that you hold. Personally, I believe in a higher creator such as God, however I also believe in spirit, manifestation, angels, and that everything happens for a reason. I am not here to force anything upon you but simply help share my story and help everyone that comes across it.

Imagine what you want your life to be

Imagery-

this is something that I am learning and trying right now. What you do is look at yourself in the mirror dead in the eyes like you are talking to someone else. Tell yourself positive things like "I am beautiful" "I am strong" "I am worthy" everything you want in life, talk to yourself like you already have it. It may feel foreign at first because you are so used to beating yourself up but stick with it and you will eventually feel it. When we talk to ourselves with negative words that's all we see and feel we engrain it in our minds that we are like this and don't deserve anything more. When we talk to ourselves with positivity our whole world will change, you will feel unstoppable, fearless, carefree, everything in life will seem so much brighter and colorful.

We are truly the biggest bullies we have; we critique everything we do, wear, and speak. It's time to let go of that negativity in our minds and know that if we make mistakes, it is totally fine, nothing is ever permanent, there is always a way out. If you sit and dwell on everything you have done wrong in life or everything you wish you had, you will be miserable and never be happy. This is your life, did you hear that YOUR LIFE, you have control don't let anyone get in the way with what you want, what makes you happy, what gives you motivation. Who has the right to make those decisions for you? who has the right to comment what you can and can't do. No one, of course there will always be something trying to ruin your happiness, trying to bring you down, but ultimately it comes down to you and what you want. You can sit and believe "there right", or you can tell yourself nope I am going to chase after what I want and find what makes me happy. It all starts in your mind, the way you talk to yourself. When you start your journey, you will have the voice in your head telling you can't do it and trust me it will be strong! ignore it know that it's not your true self. When you start your journey, you will have downfalls I'm going to tell you that right now that is 100% expected, these are the moments where you learn the most about your life. These downfalls are the turning points to sucess and happiness. They make you figure out what is worth it, and what is not. So don't defeat yourself when something may not be going the way you want it too. learn from that mistake and try again, find a new path or way around that obstacle and continue on your way. I believe in you!

Find what makes you happy

“I am worthy of having the best life”

Finding what makes you happy may be hard, or you may already know what you want out of life but are just too afraid to jumpstart in worry that you are going to fail. With social media, and everyone's opinions around you trying to tell you what you want, or what isn't right for you, it may be hard to diverse your ideas from someone else's. You may be afraid that you won't have support, or that it will not be approved. Again, it all comes down to you and what you want, ask yourself what I want out of life, what makes me happy. Then chase after that dream. Writing this blog, I have been so scared to do for the longest time in fear that people would find it, learn about me, judge me and think different of me. If they do, I don't care because this is my story and something that I have always wanted to do. My mind beats me up, telling me this won't do anything, it won't go anywhere just stop. No, I will not give in and listen to that voice, because I have a voice of my own, and it knows what it wants. Your hopes and dreams don't have to be this extreme thing, it could be as simple as starting a blog like me or opening a small business or maybe its traveling across the world discovering different places, whatever it is find a way and do it. Know you can and will do it. Take this at your own pace as you are in control, don't worry about the future because it will come focus on what is Infront of your right now. Breathe, relax and know everything will work out. I believe in you, I know that whatever you do it will work out, it is already yours. You already have a hold of what you want, and it is falling into place.